Tsk tsk

 I won’t deny, it was to all effects a weird weekend.

 It’s funny though that I now look back and I realized I was afraid of for example, being stalked or harassed by some people if I turned my artwork to Hentai, I was half right half wrong about it..

 What started as a normal chat like any other of my friends and contacts, escalated to practically a pursuit of in less than a day, between checking my DevArt in the morning and again at night, having like 3 to 6 notes waiting.

 I consider myself very well educated by my parents, and tend to display more patience towards some people that I usually don’t have, so I open them all, try to reply, but I was prooven that some people just can’t be told no and accept it.

I am extremely stubborn when it comes to things I believe in. Don’t take me wrong, doesn’t mean I don’t value other points of view, but I have my own and I don’t force them down on anyone. To each their own.

What’s sad, is when the more you say no, the more you might get provoced by those who don’t accept your point of view and reach the point of insulting you for it and for some weird belief that they know you better than anyone.

 I turn to friends that are like family, and now they know better than anyone that I have flaws like everyone else, but they also know that I’ll drop everything for them, that if needed I’ll spend as long as needed with them. For me, family/friendship is everything, but it’s not a right.. it’s a priviledge.

 One gained, not given.

 Real friends accept you in a whole, be it your good or bad traits, the magic of that friendship is that by being accepted, you’re embraced by so many positive energy that even your bad aspects tone down or even vanish. But they won’t bash or insult you for it.

 For me, the moment someone resorts to insults because they didn’t got things they way… they lost it. If anyone things that is by drowing someone with messages filled with insults, attempts to beat someone down and wound someone’s self-esteem will make things work for them, it’s a wrong step to take with me.

 I may be alot of things, but I am not desperate to make friends or to have people see things my way.

 All in all - As long as we live we still strive, cuz its the dream thats keeping us alive!

 Other that! New batch of alts on WoW ^^ Awesome spent ingame to be honest. I’ve been leveling my lev 80 Tauren Shaman that is almost 82.

 Got my priestess with gear for HCs but too much of a wuss to try hehe randoms can mean nothing but a repair bill. I made alost a baby Tauren Priestess for the fun of it, along with a new shaman, a hunter and a paladin. Yeah.. I am an alt-o-holic, but I love it and how relaxing it can be.

 

Along the way I can find images like this. Yes, I have this habit of taking photos ingame. Thats a view from nearby Bloodhoof where you can see Thunderbluff in the distance. The game has some beautiful images at nights… and thats a starting area even.

Like this one in the Barrens, taken while leveling my Troll Druid on Argent Dawn.

I have plenty more, but I’ll save them for other entries hee hee.

I found myself with new goals ingame, leveling some of my higher characters, seeing the baby ones grow up and on the way, capture small pearls like these screenshots and fuel my imagination to draw even more characters and much much more.

 I am to all effects, a very happy girl blessed with a thing to drawing and with great friends who are more than family to me.

 I know, I repeat myself alot, but when it comes to my friends, no matter how much I thank and am happy for having them, is never enough. ^^

Umtidum

 Valentines have passed.

 Yet, like many others I’m sure, had to listen to some whine about how the day is just horrible for who is single, then once hearing to my reply, either feel ashamed or bash me.

 Though I guess not everyone is prepared to hear that they might whine about not having a boyfriend or a girlfriend, but don’t they love their friends too? Isn’t loving your friends a form of love? To me it is.

 Not to mention that originally the Valentine’s day had nothing to do with couples, it’s something that in the modern days is just seen as another way of making extra money. I guess that love is just another form of merchandise to some.

 One of my quotes told yesterday to some of the people that tried to lecture me on the day was: “Look at your calender and tell me if you see Friend’s day” Do you? No…

 Theres Mother’s day.. Father’s day.. Valentines.. Children’s day… Laborers day.. Where’s the day you celebrate the friendship you have with others? On the lack of it, I use Valentine’s for it. Why? Because I love them all. My friends are my family.

( Gift given to me by Lita for Valentine’s )

 To some I simply say this.. if you don’t love your friends how can you love anyone at all?

 Because think well about them. They are those strange creatures that ask how you are and actually wait for a reply. They cry with you and offer themselves to comfort you when needed. They smile and laugh with you. They celebrate days with you even your birthday even if you say you don’t want anything. When you fall they will help you.

 It’s a relationship that is as hard as it is easy, but it’s worth it and a treasure more valuable than all the money in the world.

 So I can honestly say, I was blessed with great friend that though distant stood and stand beside me and never forsaken me in times of need. To these people in my life, no matter how many times I say thank you for everything will be enough nor anywhere near the real meaning.

 Thank you all.. for existing and being in my life. I can no longer imagine my life without you in it.

Sweets and Work

 So.. what do you do when you have way too many things to actually do, but feel like you have nothing to do?

 Confusing? Weird? Maybe… the sole idea that you have way too many things to do can create one problem; what do actually do exactly? I mean.. look at me.

 I’m a gamer, I play WoW for over 6 years now.

 

 ( And some still say the game cant possibily be beautiful.. those deffinately never looked really at the game then. )

 But in WoW I have like… so many chars in so many realms that I end up stumbling on the same problem. What char to play and what to do?

 I also Play Left 4 Dead 1 and 2 … Modern Warfare 2 <3 Soap and Ghost .. then I have some single player games like Dragon Age and Amnesia: The Dark Descent.

 But then, I also have drawing .. with requests still for attending. Zhaedros that needs quite some heavy work, not just on the comic itself, but on the website, on the lore, you name it.

 I also want to work on some personal things, like drawing or typping my characters out, and trust me, there’s alot of them.

 So many things.. so many decisions.. it throws even me off set. So… what do I do in these situations? Check who’se online that I can chat with to have company ^^’

 Either slap some episodes of series or anime, or put music on, grab some sweet or nomy supplies and a bottle of juice/soda ..hmmmm cola.. <3 and turn to the one thing that makes not only me but everyone else happy ^^ Drawing. And then its just letting my mind go wild.

 Even if sometimes.. all that comes out are spirals and weird and impossible geometry *giggles* But sometimes.. thats what your brain needs, to empty some of the crazy out to refresh the system. ‘Cuz my mind is often in overdrive and creating chars after chars and building worlds.

 So once I joked.. if the guy from Inception was proud of having created a whole city in his dreamland .. then what should I feel when I have not only cities, but worlds within my head and so many yet to be discovered.

The only downside… is that I’m so lazy I dont take proper advantage of my supposed talent *giggles* Or well, and as a dear friend told me XD I could create the next Fantasia.

 Maybe I already have.. and I just decided to be selfish and keep that world to myself hee hee

Aaaaaww My first Youtube Vid Upload

Aaaaaww My first Youtube Vid Upload

Mhmm

 Have to admit, Word of Warcraft is a game that’s been keeping me attached to it for what.. over 6 years orso.

 So far, is the one game that lasted the longest. Mostly because there’s nothing of the genre that is as captivating. Though I started with an Alliance druid, things change and I rerolled Horde, leveled countless alts throughout the time.

 Been good times, even if I can honestly say I just been drifting through the game ever since TBC came. Everyone seemed to just go on into different directions, and was the time I sorta actually stopped following the lore.

I still find the game beautiful, characters could have more and better customization, but when you roleplay you just gain this hability to see your char the way you really want to.

 I have however started once again looking at the game and I have a hard time finding a goal.. because all the ones I do hold dear to me.. are all scattered around in different servers.

 Lita lives in Argent Dawn, where she so generously offered me a home in her own guild. Yet.. as much as I wished I could just settle.. I can’t. Maybe because I have a hard time befriending people due to my shyness.. maybe cuz I’m scarred by being left alone.. I do have quite a number of lil alts and a main I moved there that I still need to type and draw them “to life”

 Furball plays in Ravenholdt, where I moved my priestess and druid too. Comes to the same deal though, much like Lita in AD, I also only have Furb in Ravenholdt.

 Kragh plays in The Sha’tar where currently is where I have the highest number of high level chars.. but I also only have him there.

 Ric plays in Doomhammer which is the only server where I actually have Alliance chars.

 Then Noraus and Natan play in servers I currently don’t remember the name.

 In the end… when you have so many great friends.. but all scattered around, it’s hard for me to settle somewhere and build goals, because after a while, even with Battlenet.. it gets lonely.

 But time will tell ^^ maybe all one needs, is time. One thing is for sure, World of Warcraft despite old.. is still capable of inspire me with char after char. ^^